Desperation in jail

After her arrest, Roux felt as though she only had one way out from prison and torture.

"I decided I had to do something quickly. Another day I would settle that with my confessor. I had a lovely blue coat with an officer's collar with a simple silver pin to close it. I tried to open my veins with the pin but couldn't. The pin was just too thin, it bent too easily. My mother always said i was clumsy. She was right. I couldn't even kill myself." (page 10).